last few days

well, my last few days have not been fun. My swelling in my legs and feet looks great...but the headache just won't go away. I've had a headache for almost 30 hours straight now. It is accompanied by severe exhaustion, all I have done is sleep, and vomiting, nosebleeds, and blurriness. I have been drinking quite a bit of water, but it seems that I am still retaining fluids, my body has imprints all over it. My ankles are are funny color, they almost look bruised, where all the swelling was. I am just so ready for today's doctor appointment...i really hope we find out something. Why am I STILL so sick? I am 5 months pregnant and should be over that by now. My doctor has not ordered an ultrasound yet (i had one at 8 weeks) and I am sooooo ready to find out what we are having. Some people are saying he won't order another unless it's needed....but goodness, I am so ready to go shopping!!!!! Well, i'm gonna go eat breakfast, just wanted to blogged again real quick! I'll update more after my appointment hopefully!

a very fast catch up!

I have stopped blogging for awhile for a few reasons. First we have been so extremely busy. We have moved, tried getting everything around for a garage sale that is going on today and been extremely uncomfortable and miserable. My blood pressure has been going crazy...the highest its been is the 159/102 and the swelling has started already. My feet and legs have been huge...there's days where I have no toes it seems! So our last doctors visit was kinda of confusing....and I'm not one to ask questions...so guess I am going to have to learn, because i have been thinkin about it non-stop since then. But a friend, that blogs on here, just wrote about journaling throughout her pregnancy and it made me realize the importance of it. Maybe it will help me to get things off my mind and sleep better. A few visits ago, our doctor asked us, do you want to to the AFP test, which determines certain things that could be wrong with the pregnancy I guess. I didn't ask any questions and said "sure" and it happened within a matter of a minute of him asking us. If I would have been given more time to think about it...we would NOT have done it! It's not like the test results would change anything!! Well, at our last visit, Nicholas asked about the test, because we never heard anything. He looked through my file and found the results...me being a little nosey started reading...he had them right there so I could see......and I read lots of not so fun things......the doctor was looking at it for quite some time, so I had a good chance to look....then he says, "I'll be back, i want to check something." and he leaves. All I can think about at the time was what I just read and all the things that came back positive. I instantly grew scared and worried about my baby, and just kept telling myself..."if only I would have thrown up so much, or drank just a little more water, or kept my vitamins down." But then the dr came back in and says...we aren't even gonna go off of this test because it was taken a week too late and there is such a high rate of false positives. But now, I'm past the 16-18 week mark and cant do the test. I'm sure things are okay because if not he would have told me right??? But there still is that question in the back of my mind that will be there til the next ultrasound and he tells me my baby is okay!! The vomiting has slowly resided, but still there. I have my horrible days and my good days!! Still not keeping down my vitamins. My feet are still horribly huge and swollen. As of now though there is not a ton of concern about that, but it does get to the point where I cannot walk on them. But on a more fun side of pregnancy.....the other day I hadnt felt the baby move all day...and at night I decided to put on some Christian worship music at my belly and instantly our baby went crazy!! Moved the entire time!!! Maybe she will be a dancer! Ha, my husband seems to think he is practicing his football moves!! LOL!!! We will see!!! Nicholas was finally able to feel the baby for more than a second this time!!! There are so many things that have made me feel like pregnancy is WAY over rated.....but then he/she moves and makes it all seem worth it!!! I will try to blog more often now and actually will try for it to make more sense...today was mostly ramblings and trying to catch up quickly!!!

long week/weekend

It's been a little since i've updated but we have been so busy this last week and weekend that I have not had the chance. I have still been having my morning sickness on occassion this week, but since the bags of fluid I have been feeling much better. I had a doctor's visit on Friday and we finally found the baby's heartbeat and it was going strong. We had the blood work done that checks for birth defects and I'm not sure really how I felt about that. He asked us and we had a minute to decide. I think if we would have thought about it we would have chose not to do it. The results of this test are not going to change anything for us as far as how we go about the pregnancy. We are starting to come to a conclusion as to why I have the morning sickness so bad, but even that has turned into a long complicated mess, which has led us to some legal issues. I have to admit Saturday was a very emotional day for me. Nicholas and i went and looked at a house we are interested in buying and were in such a whirlwind as what to do. Now is the perfect time to buy but we have a few setbacks right now that are causing us to debate. Sunday we went up to Ann Arbor and saw some friends of ours and their little newborn baby girl, Cayman. She is such a beautiful little baby and such a strong little girl. Her and her family could really use your prayers though!! They are such an awesome family and have been through so much!! And as for the rest of the evening we spent back at our old home and trying to work out some of the legal issues. That can be so discouraging. As for a good night's sleep, I am due! And think I am off to try and get a little more sleep. I have been up since 2am.

hospital visit

Sunday was a rough morning for me. Actually got up to head to church but began to crave chocolate chip cookies. On the way to the store to get some, I began vomitting again. Church was no longer an option so I went home and went back to bed. Woke up again vomiting, but refused to spend my entire day laying around. So I forced myself to get up and clean my house. I mopped my floors, did my dishes, and cleaned. But then got an urge to make a huge supper, so we invited my mother-in-law and sister in law over. Shortly after supper, Chelsea got the urge for Dairy queen and so her and Nick went to pick up ice cream for everyone, meanwhile Carla stays back and helps with dinner dishes and I find myself right back in the bathroom, but this time with severe cramping. Carla called Lindsey at the hospital to ask her about it and all the nurses said I needed to get into the hospital...so as soon as Nick got home we headed up there. We arrived in the ER at 9 and by the time they figured I needed to be omitted for the night it was 2am. I once again was dehydrated from all the vomiting and my white blood count was very elevated; which means my body was fighting off some sort of infection. The ER doctor came in saying, I have some good and bad news....good news, we are gonna take u upstairs so u can be monitored, bad news....we think your appendix is about to go. But being pregnant they were unable to do a catscan so they just watched me. Now, this explains all the sickness. Over the night and thanks to the iv bags, my count began to drop again. Which began to rule out appendix. Come to find out there my cervex is inflammed from the pregnancy which is why I have been so sick and will continue to have discomfort throughtout. I have an appointment this friday to discuss further options.

had to call the doctor

After severe headaches all throughout the day yesterday and the day before, I decided it was best to call my doctor. My headaches were causing me to throw up continuously and leaving everything blurry. With this pregnancy I have developed migranes. I have never had a problem with migranes prior so I guess I just didn't think it was possible. The nurse said it is very common for pregnant woman to get their very first one. All i know is MIGRANES SUCK!! But in the meantime, we were talking and he is starting to feel it is possible for me to also have hypoglecemia. So a week from today I have to go in and get my blood tested for low blood sugar and diabetes. This is also common in pregnant woman and I have a history of it back in high school when I played sports. So he is just gonna check and make sure that it has not become a factor again. If that's the case I will then have to be monitered more closely and go in for more check ups during pregnancy. This will explain a little of why I have been vomiting so much and feeling so yucky!! I am getting so anxious to have this baby.....ha, and I have a long ways to go yet!! The great thing though is we have so many friends also getting ready to deliver. That seems to be helping me be patient!!! John and Becky had a leap year baby, mike and kristen will be delivering next week, shannon in the month to follow, then elizabeth, then katie and then finally my turn!! Then we will be having a niece or nephew a few short weeks after ours is born!! How exciting!!!!!

first blog on pregnancy

I have a few friends that blog here so I thought I'd give it a shot. I've been keeping a calender for my baby of different things but it doesnt really allow me to write much and actually blog about how I'm feeling. I am so blessed to have a precious little one growing inside me, but I will be honest, sometimes it just gets me down. I feel like I can't go to anyone about it because every woman that has been pregnant has been here before and I dont want it to seem like I have it any worse or better than they do. I never really felt for those pregnant woman that are constantly sick until I've been through it myself. I always would tell my friends, but look what you will get in the end. Now, when people tell me that I just want to smack them. I understand that when that day comes this is all going to be worth every trip running to the bathroom, every second hurled over the toilet, every headache, and every meal I havent been able to enjoy. But right now, it has been so hard for me to even get excited about my pregnancy. I feel like I've had it all, the flu, dehydration, bladder infection, sinus infection...it's all been there. Everyone tells me, it's gonna get better soon, but it looks like there is no end in sight. I've had two scheduled visits already where we have listened for a heartbeat and then had an ultrasound. We have not been able to find the heartbeat either time, which causes a little worry from me, but they say it still could be early. I am just so ready to feel or hear something that outweighs the throwing up, nauseua, headaches, etc. I promise all these blogs won't be this discouraging. I am super excited and feel super blessed to be carrying one of God's children. It has been one of the best experiences overall and I will share the positive too. Today has just been a rough day!!

Things I am praying for:
*a strong healthy baby
*for Him to prepare Nicholas and I for parenting
*for all the other mom's out there pregnant and carrying children that could grow up to be friends of our little one
*nourishment of my body so that the baby can take what he/she needs